Saturday, August 16, 2014


Noong bata pa ako, when someone asked me kung ano gusto ko pag lumaki ako, lagi kong sagot "Teacher". Then nung lumaki na ako, ginusto ko din maging "Newscaster". Many times din pinangarap kong maging beauty queen. (I tried my best. Seriously. Pero hindi talaga yun calling ko. Haha) Ginusto ko din maging artista. (Siguro action star. Hahahaha) In short, madami akong pinangarap maging but end up graduated as an Accountant. Ang layo no? Hahaha Pero hindi dun natatapos ang lahat.

4 years ago, while my Mama is talking to one of his clients (a well-known fashion designer) napaisip ako, why not I-try ko mag sketch din? Kasi parang madali naman yung ginagawa niya. As a result, eto ang first sketch ko:

Hahahaha.. that time super proud na ako sa sarili ko. Pero to tell you honestly, hindi madali. But then I tried, tried, tried and tried... lahat na halos ng scratch paper at likod ng notebook na makita ko pinagdrawingan ko.

Hanggang sa nag improve. At dumating sa point na nagkakabuhay na yung mga ginagawa mo. Na naisusuot na pala ng mga tao.

(Sorry. Some photos I can't provide anymore. Hehe follow me na lang sa Instagram: @jaisurrender)

And now, Thanks be to God! I am currently working as Fashion Designer abroad.

Ooooooppppssss. Baka akala niyo ang dali... 4 years lang naging designer agad ako? Ofcourse not. Ang daming struggles kaya. I am confused as well. But yes, Im still in awe. Holding on to His promises is never easy. I'm not posting this to boast for myself rather I want to share and "boast" about how amazing God is.

Many years I've been praying for God's direction. Where should I go, what should I be and how would I get there? More specifically on my career path. Too many questions. Too many heartbreaks. Too many discouragements. But one thing I'm sure of, I'm still complete. God allowed me to go through a process of what we call "waiting". Oh yes... there is a process... at mahaba at masakit na proseso. The process where in many of us doesn't want to go through. Why? Because waiting can be boring or in waiting fear might overwhelm you. Fear that you wouldn't want the result of it. Fear that you might end up broken. And fear that you might end up loosing.

But we should also understand that while waiting, we can experience breakthrough. While waiting, we can exercise our patience to trust God. And in waiting, we can experience the love of God for us. We are learning while we are waiting. Also, we are never alone in this process. God is always with us and within us.

2 Corinthians 4:7-9 ESV

"But we have this treasure in jars of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us. We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed;."

The reason why we have the courage to stand still while waiting is because of God's power. That no matter how tiring it is to wait or gaano man kasakit ng mararanasan mo while you are in the process of waiting, you will not be destroyed.

Isaiah 40:30-31 ESV

"Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted;  but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint."

This process gave me the confidence to trust God and depend on Him. I still have many prayers but I am satisfied on what God is giving me right now. I'm yet again on a process of waiting... waiting for something (someone. hahaha) that I know God will sooooooooon answer. (Thank You Lord. Haha) It maybe a yes or a no but I will still praise Him and trust Him to lead me where that ànswer may be.

That is why I want to encourage you to never stop believing on His promises. Sobrang napakadaming opportunity na gustong ibigay satin ang Lord. Lalo na't anak Niya tayo. So never ever hide from those opportunities na gustong i-share satin ni Lord. Huwag kang mainip. Kalmahin ang puso. If you want to gain something, then give up everything to God and be ready. Brace yourself because He might turn your world upside down.

Hold on.


Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Should I cut down my check list?

Many of us, most of all girls have our own checklist. A checklist for us to choose the right one. What if you meet a person na  you feel and also people around you feel that you look good together but doesn't comply on your checklist? Would you settle for less? Would you cut down your checklist?

My answer is this:

Whoever we meet in life, mapaFriendship man yan, family, relatives, workmates or future partner in life will never have everything we desire of them to have. In short no body is perfect. So pagdating sa pagpili ng future partner in life, hindi masamang may standard ka. Pero we need to evaluate if our standard is realistic or not. For example, sa checklist ko mismo I have these:
▪ matangkad (kasi pangarap ko maghigh heels pag kasama ko siya.haha)
▪ malinis ang sapatos (Turn on sakin pag malinis ang sapatos)
▪ ayoko ng maingay ngumuya pag kumakain (turn off naman ito)
Above are examples of things that I can extend grace naman. Meaning even if those above traits na gusto ko ay wala sa future partner ko I can accept it. Also, I have these things:
▪ God centered man
▪ servant of God
▪ family man (he loves his family and my family)
▪ humble and confident enough (ayokong kasama sa buhay ang mayabang na tao)
▪ and the most important thing sa checklist ko ay ito: LALAKI (hehe)
So, above are examples of things or traits na hindi pwedeng mawala sa checklist ko.

Take note of this:

Whoever it is na ibigay satin ng Lord as future mate, ay meron at merong pagkakaiba sa ugali natin. No matter who God chooses for us, we will have differences. May mga bagay o dahilan para mahalin natin sila, and reasons also na kaiinisan natin. Remember also that suggestion, support, advice, and prayer can help to make changes. Pero huwag namang tinanggap mo siya at the end ang purpose mo ay baguhin siya. That is so inappropriate. Kasi hindi mo din naman gusto kung sayo ginawa yun. Instead, talk to him or her about the things na hindi maganda about them. Open communication is important.

The main point is this:

Would you still love them if they change. Can you live with them? Can you still love them in Christ?

We may have our own standards or checklist but all of those are garbage if we do not consider God's standard. He knows everything, even the things that is good for you. So pray. Do not just cut down your checklist but lift it up to God. Pray that you, yourself can understand the will of God for your life. Do not settle for less, settle for God's own standard.
Trust the Holy Spirit and the godly counsel of your parents and friends who love you dearly.

Proverbs 1:8
Listen, my son, to your father’s instruction and do not forsake your mother’s teaching.

Thank you for reading! God bless!