Noong bata pa ako, when someone asked me kung ano gusto ko pag lumaki ako, lagi kong sagot "Teacher". Then nung lumaki na ako, ginusto ko din maging "Newscaster". Many times din pinangarap kong maging beauty queen. (I tried my best. Seriously. Pero hindi talaga yun calling ko. Haha) Ginusto ko din maging artista. (Siguro action star. Hahahaha) In short, madami akong pinangarap maging but end up graduated as an Accountant. Ang layo no? Hahaha Pero hindi dun natatapos ang lahat.
4 years ago, while my Mama is talking to one of his clients (a well-known fashion designer) napaisip ako, why not I-try ko mag sketch din? Kasi parang madali naman yung ginagawa niya. As a result, eto ang first sketch ko:
Hanggang sa nag improve. At dumating sa point na nagkakabuhay na yung mga ginagawa mo. Na naisusuot na pala ng mga tao.
(Sorry. Some photos I can't provide anymore. Hehe follow me na lang sa Instagram: @jaisurrender)
Ooooooppppssss. Baka akala niyo ang dali... 4 years lang naging designer agad ako? Ofcourse not. Ang daming struggles kaya. I am confused as well. But yes, Im still in awe. Holding on to His promises is never easy. I'm not posting this to boast for myself rather I want to share and "boast" about how amazing God is.
Many years I've been praying for God's direction. Where should I go, what should I be and how would I get there? More specifically on my career path. Too many questions. Too many heartbreaks. Too many discouragements. But one thing I'm sure of, I'm still complete. God allowed me to go through a process of what we call "waiting". Oh yes... there is a process... at mahaba at masakit na proseso. The process where in many of us doesn't want to go through. Why? Because waiting can be boring or in waiting fear might overwhelm you. Fear that you wouldn't want the result of it. Fear that you might end up broken. And fear that you might end up loosing.
But we should also understand that while waiting, we can experience breakthrough. While waiting, we can exercise our patience to trust God. And in waiting, we can experience the love of God for us. We are learning while we are waiting. Also, we are never alone in this process. God is always with us and within us.
2 Corinthians 4:7-9 ESV
"But we have this treasure in jars of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us. We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed;."
The reason why we have the courage to stand still while waiting is because of God's power. That no matter how tiring it is to wait or gaano man kasakit ng mararanasan mo while you are in the process of waiting, you will not be destroyed.
Isaiah 40:30-31 ESV
"Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint."
This process gave me the confidence to trust God and depend on Him. I still have many prayers but I am satisfied on what God is giving me right now. I'm yet again on a process of waiting... waiting for something (someone. hahaha) that I know God will sooooooooon answer. (Thank You Lord. Haha) It maybe a yes or a no but I will still praise Him and trust Him to lead me where that ànswer may be.
That is why I want to encourage you to never stop believing on His promises. Sobrang napakadaming opportunity na gustong ibigay satin ang Lord. Lalo na't anak Niya tayo. So never ever hide from those opportunities na gustong i-share satin ni Lord. Huwag kang mainip. Kalmahin ang puso. If you want to gain something, then give up everything to God and be ready. Brace yourself because He might turn your world upside down.